It's time to get real. This online journey I am embarking on must become something a lot more personal, and make me a lot more accountable. I am turning this blog into a fitness / personal awareness site. I intend to log my fitness goals, activity and nutrition intake in order to reach those goals. I will post pictures of my progress along the way. So much is going on internally with me, that I have chosen not to blog lately. However, journaling is a fantastic outlet, and the things that I am learning about myself along the way are incredible. The 'ah-ha' moments have been truly inspiring, and I am changing every day.
I have a goal that by my 30th birthday (53 days away), that I will have lost 14 more pounds. I have lost 6 pounds, as of last Monday 11/06/06 - but in the past week I am not so sure that I've done everything I could to lose more.
I purchased a gym membership for myself, and my husband outright. We will now, have the opportunity to go to the gym, with a lifetime membership fee of $10 per month. No more excuses. I am ready to altar the course of my life by truly giving my body what it needs in the sense of nutrition, exercise, and as well - listening to my emotions, thoughts, ideas, and really moving toward my own goals and dreams in life. For far too long I have stuffed my feelings away. I have chosen to hide my emotions because the intensity of these emotions is frequently too much for those around me to bare. I have chosen to look at those, and to learn how to harness these energies within myself for a greater good.
To choose food over feelings, has been a lifelong battle. It is why I have struggled with my weight my entire life. I intend to live my 30's (and on) with more self awareness than ever before - listening to my body's intrinsic wisdom and exercising judgement and discernment in what I subject myself to, physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. The journey began months ago. I am now looking back along the path I have walked, and am beginning to put the pieces together.
Writing is my outlet. I will store that here, among this blog, for anyone, and all to see. Living life transparent can be only liberating.
