Loss

So much to mention in such a small corner of cyber space. My uncle's father passed away this past week, entirely unexpectedly. I feel very close to my aunt, and have such a genuine sense of love and admiration for their family. It is difficult to know what to say at a time like this, when what I want to do is be with them to just hug them and cry with them. I have heard it said that there are people that come into our lives and it matters little when they leave, and then there are people who come into our lives and it matters every day after they leave. She spoke to me of what a wonderful man he was, and how it has left such a hole there, in their lives. The loss I'm sure is tremendous, and my heart truly aches for what they are going through.

It seems that we never get accustomed to loss. Change is a natural phenomenon that we live with day and night, and yet when it happens drastically it is so difficult to work with. During this same week I learned that an old friend of mine, whom I felt very close to for much of my formative years, had a sudden psychotic break and is now in the hospital. She harmed herself and her husband, and I will give no further details. These two events however, have truly stayed with me throughout this week. I ask the questions 'Why?' and 'How did this happen?' and yet they remain unanswered. Some questions are answers among themselves.

So very much to consider right now, and I just wanted to post something. I am warmed by the faith that my aunt continues to exhibit. She is truly such an example to me, and I wish that I had the fervor and faith that she has in God. I am lost.